This evening, a friend stood up in front of two hundred people and erased me. It wasn't a malicious act. It was probably forgetfulness. But my contribution completely vanished from history. Something I did and was very proud of. Poof. I apparently did not do it. But that is not how I remember it.
I'm suffering. This hurts.
How do I deal with this? How do I quit hurting? We are going to be working more in the future. I've given my word. So I am afraid of and expecting this to happen again. But I cannot gracefully back out without completely destroying previous work done. So I have to suck this up. I have to let this go.
I have to throw up my hands and say 'armour myself against what I am taught will happen again' and carry on.